Dentistry and Illness

So my recap on the last few days:
Friday: I wake up with no voice
Saturday: Coughing
Sunday: Sniffles
Isn't that a lovely progression?

This week is homecoming week.  Not gonna lie, homecoming stuff sort of depresses me. Where I'm at it's a casual event, not formal. Maybe it's better that way. I'm not really sure, but everywhere else it's formal it seems. So I see pictures everywhere of all these people I can't stand all dressed up in expensive outfits smiling with their dates in huge groups lined up in front of mansions. It just gets to me, you know it?
One of the theme days was sort of a pajama sweat pants day. I don't like those kind of days. Of course I'm the awkward kid in the skinny jeans and black while everyone else is rocking the yoga pants and sport tournament shirts. I just cannot wear sweatpants in public. They make me feel lazy and fat. I wear them all the time at home, but I only wear jeans in public, which I never wear at home. The trend of sweatpants is simply a reflection of today's society: fat and lazy.

Today went by slowly. Not the greatest day. Didn't really feel like being around or talking to anyone. Of course though when I feel like that, people are texting and chatting at me.
Then just recently I went to a dentist appointment. My teeth hurt now. For some reason them brushing my teeth is painful. Especially flossing.
I always feel self-conscious at the dentist. I feel like my teeth are specifically horrible compared to everyone else, that I'm more difficult than everyone else and blah blah blah. Props to dentists and assistants. I also feel like I look like an idiot because I wear sunglasses and close my eyes under the lights. My eyes are sensitive, and my eyes have actually started watering before and the assistants have freaked out, "Oh, why are you crying?!" and I have to stupidly say, "It's the light."
Then I saw a person I know there. I really don't know that many people in the area, but yeah, I see someone I know. I get annoyed when I see people I know when I don't want to be seen. But this happens a lot nonetheless. Also the person didn't even recognize me. I've seen them around a few times now, and I attended a course with them at a time for a good month. And they're a mutual friend...it bothers me when people like that don't remember me. I remember them! But at the same time I don't really want to be...grrr, I'll just stop now. I want to feel like I leave an impression, but sometimes I just want to live life without running into people I know.

Yeah.

Voiceless Day

Today I woke up with no voice. Yay. So I walked around all day stupidly nodding, smiling, and waving because I couldn't speak. Then when I had to explain I couldn't talk I'd have to, so then everyone could hear my ugly low scratchy voice. That was gross and painful. I sounded like a chain smoker at best.

I find it strange that I'm one of the best writers among my peers. Our superior was forcing almost all of us to re-do our writing and I was one of the lucky few who somewhat satisfied their expectations, and was excused from having to re-do my writing. I suppose that's a good thing since writing is my passion XD
Today I wrote a 20 lined poem in the view point of a Puritan woman with an AA BB CC rhyme scheme with some slant rhymes thrown in. I wrote it really quickly too. I'm one of those people who has to write something and get it right right away, or it's probably not going to work. I'm not the greatest poet in the world, but it was very good poetry for me.

You know what's annoying? There's this person where it seems every time I try talking to them first, we always have a boring or bad conversation. It's like they always have to start it...it's rather stupid and annoying.
Also, I always find myself assuming that people don't know things, and then they'll just casually be like "Oh yeah, me too, I did that back in...". Then I always feel really bad. This seriously happens to me like everyday.

I was shopping, checking out the Halloween costumes. They are ridiculously expensive! I've never really bout a costume before oddly enough. The store was charging $50 for these cheap witch dresses that probably should cost about $15 tops. I ended up buying a red wig though. I want to cosplay as Madam Red from Black Butler (Kuroshitsuji) at an anime convention this spring. I like the wig, but the problem is it is nowhere near the shade it was in the picture on the package. On the box it was like this awesome dark red, but it's actually like the brightest red I've ever seen. I have this skirt I was thinking of using for a ball gown skirt, but the thing is, it's way too short...and now the wig doesn't match it at all. Then I was at Goodwill and found a red shirt that would work for her other, normal outfit...the wig wouldn't match that either though. I'm new to cosplaying...I think I'm doing it wrong hahaha.

So, yeah, that's what's happened today.

This week!

This has been a pretty crazy week and it's only Thursday! I've joined a production of Much Ado About Nothing by Shakespeare and have read through the script nearing 4 times now. That's more reading than I've done in like the past 4 months...I love actors, they make life interesting and worth going to the practices.
On top of hours of rehearsal everyday, 6 exams were given to me. So, that wasn't so great, but I think they went well.
I've done some public speaking in the last few days and received high praise from my peers and instructor. As I stood up at the podium, looking out at everyone, I thought to myself, "I like this. This is fun. This feels good." I love public speaking. Most people hate it. Why do I like it? I like it because I'm such a soft-spoken person, my voice is never heard. When I get up behind that podium though, people have to respect me, they have to listen. I've trained myself to become quite decent at the skill of short speeches. People will respect you if you make no mistakes. They will see that there is something in you. That is only part of the many reasons I love public speaking.

Freaking Is Not Worth It

I could rant on and on about today, but in short, today I have relearned many lessons.
It was a busy day. I had to give a speech on pet peeves today, which went surprisingly well, gaining the praise of my peers and superior. I'm familiar with public speaking and rarely am I told that I sound passionate and loud, but today I was told that. So, that was a good moment. I rarely get compliments and approval from others. Most people have no opinion on me. It's good to be recognized. What I love about public speaking is that you can just go up and show the world what you're really made of. Your speech is more important than you, so you can step out of your shell to deliver the message you have to present to the world.
Afterward, I had an award ceremony to attend, but the people I was going with whom I was depending upon were running late. I had no dinner or appropriate outfit on and less than an hour before the event began. So I had to cram in some fast food and buy a whole outfit. I ended up in a wool plaid skirt and a peasant top --- with sneakers. I had to borrow a pair of flats. I was in no way happy. I liked the items I bought, just not together...and many people saw my horrible outfit with my Nikes. Anyways, the event really wasn't as big of a deal as I thought it would be. It was in no way worth any of my worry. I felt bad because I'd gotten really upset with the people I went with, but it was somewhat out of their control. I just felt that it was rude they couldn't have called me, letting me know that they couldn't fulfill their promises to me. If I had known they wouldn't have come through, I would have made my own plans. But it's over now.
I'd been feeling quite self-conscious and ugly, like a freak in my last minute outfit. But when I got home and looked in the mirror I realized that I was overreacting. It really didn't look that bad. Sure, no one else was wearing an outfit like what I was, but I looked beautiful in my own way, which is all I can really do. I felt stupid getting so worked up about everything, but then again, I always do.

The new blog!

So, I'm aware that I pretty much started this blog as a place to rant about stuff. I've decided to re-purpose it though. Weird Lame Interesting Awesome...Life will now be more of a place where I'll talk about stuff happening in my life and what's on my mind. This is different from my other blogs, Uncertain Knight, and On a Lighter Note, though because in Uncertain Knight I post more about moments of confusion, hope, joy, or disappointment, rather vaguely. In On a Lighter Note I post more of just random happy thoughts. Here though, I want to be more specific about things I'm doing in hope that this is more relatable and enjoyable than just rants.

So, anyways, today:
Monday. Back to life as I know it. I read an excerpt written by a pilgrim back in the day. It was rather dry, but in the least, understandable. I've begun watching Les Misérables (the 1998 movie version). So far I'm in love with it. I've been told it's horrible compared to the book, so I do hope that someday I will read the book, but I'm an incredibly slow reader and procrastinate. I'll have books checked out of the library for a month before I even pick them up. Then I'll probably read them for about 5 minutes a day between places to be. I really need to have a chunk of time trapped in a waiting room or something to actually force myself to read. I have been studying themes in The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn though. It's quite interesting to observe Huck's maturity throughout the novel, along with his differences to Tom, and satire. I love writing, but I don't know how I could ever think of all these themes and incorporate them into my writing!
I'm listening to Drive A, at the moment. I've never listened to Drive A before now, but I've seen them advertised everywhere in the magazine I read and finally decided to take a listen (note that this is about 3 months after I noticed their adds). They're pretty good!